My Story

Everyone I know and I have met in the last three years has asked me the same question. "Why are you with someone like him? They tell me how smart I am and how pretty I am and how I could have anyone I want and be anywhere I want to be and continuously ask [...]

I'm Back

I haven't been here for a while for many reasons. Although I should be because I'm experiencing the worst part of life ATM. I hope this message finds all of my viewers and followers having a wonderful holiday season! I lost my job in October and November and December have always been the hardest months [...]

Beyond Tired

I'm so tired of all the gaslighting and manipulation. Just now, "You don't want me to watch porn, you don't want me to get off on anything else, I'll just bother you." While giving me MY phone back!! Like what the AF!! I'm not even playing guys, this dude has some serious f'ed up fantasies. [...]

Bipolar and Domestic Abuse

Individuals with untreated bipolar disorder are at an increased risk for violent behavior for the following reasons: Substance abuse often fuels domestic violence. Mania can cause impulse control disorders. Reckless sexual behavior can cause injury to the bipolar person’s partner. Uncertainty Whenever the partner who has bipolar disorder, he or she can lose their sense [...]

“Just Leave”

We aren’t protecting and loving the abuser; we are protecting and loving our family and friends. We are protecting ourselves. I wouldn't expect you to understand. The brain blocks out traumatic events. I just didn’t automatically realize what happened to me despite the fact that it happened multiple times. Leaving an abusive relationship is much [...]

99% of Victims Were Clueless!

There's words for some of the things I've experienced in life,  Unknowledgeable it's a "Thing". Very Important THING. Parental Alienation, PD's, Gaslighting, Love Bombing, Hoovering, Reactive Abuse 😮, Financial Abuse, The Silent Treatment is Abuse! Trauma Bonds, Stockholm Syndrome, Isolation, Identity Insults, Codependency..... These are just a few things that I had never heard of [...]